Born with a heart the size of Texas, it has been broken
more times than I can count. Always
listening with my heart, and ignoring the “wiser” council from my head, has
left me settling for less than I truly wanted.
Don’t get me wrong, there have
been many happy years and lots of love shared.
However the deeper, enduring, forever kind of love has always been
elusive and the magic was not to be found.
Emptiness
at times consumes my soul. Unstoppable tears fall like an angry
tornado. Eventually both the storm and the tears
dissipate and life moves on. Questions flood my mind. Where is the
joy? How did I end up like this? Will I always be alone, unloved?
Seemingly powerless to change my future I have
drifted into a state of numbness. Going
through the monitions of daily life but detached, as if watching a movie
of
someone else’s story. A fog of despair
thickens and I withdrawal deeper into myself, lost like a child
surrounded by
strangers. With out love…. there is nothing.
Magic… forever lost. These
thoughts dance across the windows of my mind and leave me wanting.
The good news…those scenes are only imagined. Will I allow the sunshine
of hope to burn away the fog ofdespair? Slowly, ever so gradually, my
heart warms, and I see once again the blank pages of my future. I
realize they are yet mine to write. Stepping boldly forward I try once
again. Gathering strength of will and a determination born of despair,
my quest for the magic begins anew.
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